NOOOOO

I got a B on my science test. A B!!! That's terrible. D: I got all teary eyed for a second then forgot about it.. well I hope not. As long as I remember it I will aspire to do better than that B! Better! >:O And that means better than that one girl who sits next to me too. (uhh, maybe that's a long shot, if i dont tryyy that is!)

I have a severe procrastination problem. :( For example, I am writing this instead of taking a shower or cleaning my room. Yup.. clean and cleaner. It would smell nicer too. T_T ughh

Nyaa

Nothing much. Ever much.

Kind of bored. ._.

New Reason

Well I've kind of been all like, "mehhh, this blog is too on the internet/public to write anything too terribly personal, but it still helps say stuff that you've been not saying and stufffs like that" and I'm getting kind of tired of that mindset.

Buuuuuut! I think I have a new reason for dedication to this blog thingie: memories! I tend to forget what I did the day before and the day a week before and stuff like that. Everything just becomes one big blur and I believe that before I know it high school will be over and I'll be 30 having my mid life crisis.

However, if I keep this blog, I feel like I can write down a few things that I think about everyday to make me feel more like I lived, rather than ran fast forwarded through my life. Mmhmmm...

God

I like being able to solve my own problems, so when I feel down I google it and always get something like "oh, I was very depressed and life sucked and I wasn't as happy as I used to be" and I'm like, okay, keep reading, this sounds promising... "and then I found GOD!"

Then I stop reading and feel worse. >:O

Blarghh Rant

First and foremost, I have not gotten much sleep or exercise in the last two or three days so maybe that's what putting me in a bad mood, but nevertheless I feel GRRRR!!!

ru9huuiYG!YFG!GY!G!H!UHih

!HUJHuj1ujhUH

J!IhU!UH!UH!!H!HVFC!V!!!!!!!!

I think that I'm still overly self conscious.

I doubt anything I say holds any merit or captivates anyone.

Some people make me feel like crap and some people make me feel like I'm amazing. But the people don't need to say anything to make me feel how I do.. and I tend to remember feeling like crap more than feeling prideful of myself.

I don't think I'm enjoying life much right now. Yeahh, there's school. I don't think I smile as much as I used to, or I feel very comfortable around what used to be my chill I feel comfortable around you friends. I want to write it off as "I just dont care much anymore" and start doing crazy things, but NOOoOOooOO, I really do care a lot, and maybe because of that (or linked to that fact?) I'm overly self conscious and no fun to be around.

I used to say a lot of things, and now either I have no audience or don't like my audience. Picky, aren't I?

BlehH!!GH!H!! I like last summer.

I made some good friends, actually had my first relationship and everything was so nice and happy. But now school has started all again and all those friends? they go to another school. The great relationship? we broke up and I don't think we'll talk much ever again... I think I went all clingy and pushed the person away from that... I regret it so much.

I feel like I acted out of character. Then again this never happened before to me so I can't really say what would have been in character. It was a very... learning experience I guess. But I was really happy too. And now I'm not. -.- Grrrrrrrrrrr

It's hard to meet new people when you go to the same school everyday, don't do much other than that, and aren't very involved. I just never felt like it and I don't think I ever will feel like it. On the bright side I should be getting my driver's license this year, whoopee.

Either I unconsciously distance myself from people or they distance themselves from me.. either way I feel pretty lonely and I feel like I'm complaining about something with a really easy fix. -.- Like, just talk to someone I haven't in a while or something. I just don't feel like it anymore, though.

Oh, well. It's Tuesday... and that means WoW might get patched, yaaaaay. -.- I have such a shallow life. Bleh. And hey, I make good grades and am reasonably good looking (of course, that doesn't help when I'm stuck in the past and don't really like talking to people as much as I used to >:O).

I believe today will be a good day. I think. I got all of this out on paper (?) before my day really started anyway, so all this suckyness is probably out. And I think I just need a good hour run and sleep. Oh yes... sleep.

Weekend

School has been closed since Tuesday because it rained, froze over, then snowed. I guess you can say it's a six day weekend (even though they took away some future vaction days.. grrrr!)

I don't really have much to show for it except a bunch of sitting around and watching Grey's Anatomy (a friend recommended it to me and I keep watching it because there's like 7 seasons already).

Ahahaha, and the procrastinator in me has Monday's homework still not done. Tomorrow will be a busy Sunday! ><

New Blog

So I decided to start this blog.. and I think that something is wrong for this post being the second one I make. >_> Buut anyways, I kind of don't want to share it with anybody because it seems strange, but perhaps that's the introvert in me talking.

I've always kind of wanted a blog. It seeeems like it would be cool. I guess so. I 'unno. Hmmm, but what if I put embaressing things on here? What if people actually follow this blog? ._. That would be mindblowingly embaressing, I guess.

Oh, well.

Sledding

Well, today all the snow seems to be melting and stuff -.- (so sad - we never get snow in Texas..) but we manage to sled before it all melted away!! Yeahhh! >:D

We latched on to each other.

Then we made the snow ramp bigger and tried testing it.

Again..

And that all comprised a very fun Friday. >:)